I was frustrated that evening and I had to take drugs again just to forget what I was going through, but this time I had taken pretty much that I couldn’t drive back home, but I had no other choice left but to drive all alone. I tried to arrange seat belt properly but couldn’t, WTF I yelled.
Everything was blur once I started driving, I was experiencing a very severe headache, and suddenly I could see bright lights from my opposite and there was a bang.
Deeksha chatterjee, a 18 year old teen who has many expectations with life.
I still remember that day when I was 11. I was eagerly waiting for my dad to return home from his work so that we could go out for a ride on his 2 wheeler.
I didn’t know what had happened to him but he never returned home that day, but never did I lose hope, I was always waiting for him.
My mom used to say that he has gone to god for an important meeting, little did she knew that I was mature enough to understand what death is.
I was very close to my dad, that his death had a very negative impact on me. I stopped talking to people, I was lost, all I knew was I’ve to get him back. Like my mom says he will be back. I wanted to ask him what made him leave me. Just once, or I wanted him for forever.
This obsession made me insane, I wanted to go back in time.
But is that even possible?
Going insane everyday, I had to create my Terrene which was a river side small forest, not most people were aware of this place.
One day when I was sitting idle under zombu (a banyan tree whom I used to call with that name), we were talking about everything and nothing. He used to shower his leaves whenever I laughed, may be that was his way of showing love. But I enjoyed his company.
And that day I found a small passage behind his trunk, I asked him what was that, he smiled and said that, inside him stayed people who couldn’t stay in real world. I was surprised, I asked him would I find my dad inside him?
He said yes, but he didn’t let me go in.
I pleaded him, cried a lot and finally zombu agreed but with a condition.
He asked me not to disturb anyone in that world if I did that I would lose my life.
I agreed, but only I knew what I was going to do, I wanted my dad back and this was the only way I could get him back.
I slowly entered into the passage which was very vast and beautiful inside, I could see greenery every where.
I fell into a garden which was of diamonds, I thought of taking some of them back but remembered what zombu said.
I stood up, and the very first thing I had in my mind was to search for my dad.
This world is not much different than ours, you can find all creatures here which are dead in the real world, it’s like a mirror world, houses, streets, trees, everything was same.
I could see people laughing, smiling, playing joyfully, none of them had a sign of tension, may be this is the life after death.
And I could see a person smiling at me, with a bunch of red roses in his hands.
Yeah he was my dad, I ran to him, embraced him and cried a lot.
Why did you leave us dad?
Beta why did you come here, it’s not your place he said.
I came to take you back dad.
He smiled and said that you can never stop what destiny has planned for you. Beta I have always tried to come back but could never.
You know what, once someone steps into this world it’s impossible for them to go back, this is the end to infinity he said.
I smiled at him with wet eyes, baba I’ve come here to take you back with me, I know how to escape you from this virtual world. Just hold my hand and come with me.
I held his hand and started running from that place he was still smiling like he knew what would happen.
I was lost, it was a trap, it was a maze.
It was very hard for me to take breathe, my limbs became numb, my eyes were blurred, I could hear my dad, he was telling that I would be free forever in no time, and suddenly he disappeared, I couldn’t find him, I was still searching for my answers, I could hear someone was crying holding my hands, it was my mom, I was in the hospital bed, that night I met with an accident, I was half dead, I could hear doctors telling to my mom that there is no chance for my life. I was in coma since 4 months. She was screaming, I was beside her saying that nothing happened to me, I’m fine, but she was still crying, may be she couldn’t hear me.
She was uttering something, yeah she was praying for me, for my life.
I wanted to go back to her, and tell her that I met dad, but how?
And suddenly everything disappeared, now I couldn’t see my mom too.
And then someone from my behind called my name, I turned back it was my dad, he tightly embraced me and said beta I’m always with you but now your mom needs you, you have to go back, saying this he left my hands and pushed me from a huge hill.
I was falling down, dad help me, I screamed, he was just smiling at me and I fell down.
2 days later, I opened my eyes and found my mom beside me still praying, I could hear doctors saying that this was a miracle, I held my mom’s hands and kissed her lightly, now I can feel her, I was alive.
She said Kanha ji has listened to her prayers but only I knew the reason for my rebirth.
I can still talk to him, but this time he stays within me.
Thank you dad. ♥
Deeksha chatterjee, 2012.
© Vaishnavi Vasudevan, 2017.